There was never a Reichenbach Falls moment when I failed. My failure was so many smaller moments that built on each other time and time again to create an environment that I could not survive the cumulative effect.
I lived my life thinking I could fight any battle I thought when it came to my Reichenbach Falls moment I would survive. But like much of my life that was hubris and ego and foolish.
By telling myself that it would be one cinematic thematic moment that I would have to survive. I miss that reality is a series of Reichenbach Falls not true epic moments, but 1000 tiny moments - That build together to create a waterfall that you can’t cannot overcome.
I was thinking I was fighting a battle that led to a climax. I was blind to the fact that the battle is 1000 tiny moments.
1000 tiny battles that all add up to something that is so much more important than a singular moment.
You don’t lose the war in a climactic battle you lose the war in all the tiny battles you lose along the way.
I thought I was building to an epic climax to a battle that would end no battles.
Yet in it I lost every battle along the way till I found I had nothing to fight for anymore
